He Wants to Heal

Just a casual conversation with a friend

Me: My deepest fear is poverty
Friend: Me too
Me: Why?
Friend: Because I would like to be able to provide for my family.

What a responsible person, I thought to myself.

“And any good man will never be attracted to you”

I caught myself agreeing with that thought. How long have I been agreeing with this thought? See, it all starts with a foothold we give to the enemy to operate in our lives. It always begins with a small, almost harmless assault on our mind. I rejected and renounce that thought in Jesus name. What we agree with the enemy, affects how we react to life.

In my case, I do not know how to receive love. Undamaged love.

Let Me Heal You

Next morning as I was praying, I felt a sudden headache then I heard the Lord say

put on anointing oil and rest on your bed” I’m not sure if I heard it right and the only way to find out is to obey in faith. My God will never harm me.

You know how the time flies, only yesterday was the time of our lives. [EXPLORED]
The moment I shut my eyes, the horrible image of a little girl being touched inappropriately flashes before my eyes. It is sexual assault. I begin shivering and ask the Lord to stop, I can’t take this because this image hits too close to home.

I was that little girl. Maybe I still am due to the pain I carry along with me these 25 years.

Bless this man,” He said gently. I did, in my tears, mixed with anger, confusion, just pure anguish. The image has gone and He showed me, at the moment I was molested, I have believed that I’m a bad person therefore bad things happen to me. It must be. Out of so many people, why me? Why did they choose me?

Rub the Mud into Your Eyes

John 9:11 – He replied, “The man they call Jesus made some mud and put it on my eyes. He told me to go to Siloam and wash. So I went and washed, and then I could see.”

I believed that I don’t deserve anything good because of the lie I bought as young as 5 years old “you’re a bad person and bad person don’t get good things” – says the father of all lies.


No, I’m just a victim of people’s fallen nature but the cost of their mistakes, I have been carrying it with me. So much so, the sexual assault happened to me multiple times as I was growing up. In swimming pool, bus stops, walking to school, nowhere seems safe. Many nights I cried myself to sleep thinking it was my fault.

Which is why I do not know how to receive love.

To set me FREE permanently from the grip of the enemy, Jesus confronts me with my deepest pain. Like the blind man who was already blind and suffering, Jesus insists to rub it in. So that he can be healed forever. This particular day is the day I can begin healing because He helped me to confront my pain by pulling out thorn from my wounds.

You’re a Destruction of Darkness

John 1:5 – The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.


Are you like me? Are you hurting and part of you believe you’ll never get out of your situation and it is always the same cycle over and over again. (Could be anything that repeats in your life)

The same cycle could happen again and again because we have been accustomed to it and we are already comfortable with these lies. So why change?

My beloved sisters and brothers, it is when you are set free, you become a massive destruction of the enemy because your personal story with Him, can set many free from their prison when you’re ready to testify. Just like the blind man who testify Jesus.

Let the light, shine in your darkness. Nothing can stop Him from shining into your deepest need of healing.

Do You Want to be Healed?

We want to journey with you.

Please email leonalim@kaog.org.my or bellefoong@kaog.org.my

we will immediately assist you in our specific healing ministries.

I myself have been to The Supernatural Ministry, led by Aunty Sybil that delivered me from many deep-rooted issues. I believe that is the first step in my healing. I can’t thank God enough for these ministries our Church has invested in.


Let’s heal. It’s time to take our mat and walk on.

Testimony by:

Belle Foong found the purpose of life and the reason to live in Christ. The world just doesn’t make sense without Jesus. Sometimes she paints sometimes she sings. Currently is not sure whether she should move to north pole after this testimony due to fear.


  1. Emily

    This is a very good post. Very personal and I hope it blesses especially those who has gone through the same experience and need to be set free by God’s healing power.

    1. KAOG

      Amen, Thank you for your kind words Emily

  2. Li-Ann Choong

    Dear Belle, thank you for coming out of the closet and boldly sharing your story. I was also once a victim, and in several occasions as well. It is when we are at the weakest, that we find Him to be our Strength. I hope you find that Rest and Assurance…. as well as Healing that only He is able to give. Remember, you ‘don’t have to be the strongest’.

    1. KAOG

      Dear Li-Ann, thank you for your encouragement. Amen to need not to be strong. He is strong enough.

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